Sometimes rightful anger is more than justified, but getting triggered and self-righteous and angry online has never done anything for me except draining my energy and making me feel miserable, which I need to consciously fight and counter afterwards to stay on track.
Often not worth it at all.
"What makes this particular addiction so dangerous is that it not only feels good, it makes us feel righteous.
Pete Ross explains why outrage can be so seductive when he says:
“We love being angry, because it makes us feel smart. It makes us feel like we care more than the next person (who we assure ourselves doesn’t care enough), because we’re more across the facts than they are. That we have the necessary ideas to fix everything. That we’re the ones that need to be in charge.”
The question that we need to ask when we find ourselves binging on this kind of personal arrogance is this: What is my outrage actually accomplishing?
"… i hate to say it, but i got awfully sick of certain routines, and certain priorities of certain churches. Much of that is on me, effects of insomnia and bouts of depression and anxiety (which can be amplified by insomnia, and insomnia can trigger the other two things), i think those symptoms, along with the pre-canned criticism that i mentioned before, those things wear on my patience, and sometimes i block-out the stuff that i'm completely bored with, and perk-up when the meat and potatoes is served--the teaching/communicating...
… Much of the church music is wonderful, there are some very gifted folks that play at their churches... but i'm not into performances anymore, noisy and over-distracting places turn me off, sensory over-load, i've got issues, i can only handle so much celebration at a time, and only so much volume at a time... so we haven't gone to a regular church to gather regularly in quite a while, but i have heard some good teachings over the years, and online/zoom, etc, those are cool when other viewers know how to mute their devices...
… There are plenty of things in various churches that i know that i appreciate and can tolerate, and then there are some churches where the whole experience has to be over-produced, pre-canned, entertaining, and peculiar priorities instead of meat and potatoes... i think i've become quite the church snob over the years, there is a new one pretty close by that the family and i are going to check out, i'd prefer a church that's in-town, that understands that the town they are in is their mission, not just focused on the closest city or just far-off lands, what are you doing for your/our town, that's the type of church that i'm searching for, and one that doesn't spend too much time on bells and whistles—some of the best 'churches' that i've attended were just random chairs under some type of shade...
… I know, i know, i've become quite the church snob, maybe i’m just a grumpy-pants middle-aged cuss now, i dunno... but, where's the small town church that prioritizes our God and the small town that's in it's own backyard, our neighbors... i hope to find it... i don't need a feature-rich church, just a simple one, more like me... prayers are solicited—maybe your prayers will help us find a good church, a church where spectacle isn't common practice, but the reality of God, OT and NT kingdom-principles, and the two most important commandments are the priority… there must be one out there, but is there one in my own town? Maybe, time will tell. -- ct
if i read this every night before i go to bed will it work? Time will tell ;-) looking to forward to reading it... purposeful sleep hygiene is something i need to take much more seriously, and meds/Rx aren't a great long-term solution... school me, Nick... school me
... i'm a middle-aged grown-ass man yet i've used emojis ever since i leaned about them -- confessions of a nerd -- i use the thumbs-up quite a bit, i use the heart one regularly too, i do the wink-thing quite a bit (because i can be a wise-ass, and i just want to make sure you know that i'm joking/playing/teasing, and then i love the sticking the tongue out, or 'raspberry' one too :-P, it's a sort of silly face like Einstein's famous silly-face, sometimes it creeps people out, sometimes it brightens a depressed person's day a little bit, and 'no', i wouldn't do the actual Einstein face in real life, at least not without sticking the thumbs in the ears and wiggling the fingers... anyways, i'm a sucker for the einstein-emoji... confessions of a middle-aged geek -- ct
i thought someone in the house actually bought pork-rinds until i read the label... so... maybe the bag wasn't quite sealed? It is the middle of July, and it's been awfully humid around here :-) -- ct
07-12-23: sometimes i write about violence, and shooting, and killing—and, probably far more than a 'good Christian' should, much of that has to do with some extreme violence, and some extreme deviants and psychopaths that i've had the displeasure of interacting with... i've recently watched a Russell Brand podcast with Tucker Carlson as his guest--i appreciate those two guys and agree more than disagree with them. One of the things that both of them agreed upon (based on Tucker's statement) that violence and capital offense are never any good, they are just plain wrong... i love peace too, i'd love a world absent of evil, one where folks only use their free-will, intelligence, resources, and creativity for kind loving peaceful things--who wouldn't? So in that respect, i sort of agree with them both... BUUUT, i actually think that capital-punishment/death-sentences are morally justifiable depending on the crime and brutality and maybe a few more considerations... BUT--then again--the problem with the criminal-justice system delivering a judgement for a sentence to death is that the very same criminal-justice system also gets things wrong sometimes, wrongful imprisonment based on deviant witnesses/investigators/prosecutors… however it happens that some folks get wrongly-imprisoned is plenty bad enough, but a sentence to death based on false testimony, or legal-system abuse/exploitation, man, it's sad to think that happens, that some scape-goat bares the wrath/punishment of another person's crime, but reality is that sometimes that happens, maybe not very often... but other ‘sometimes’ everyone knows that we know that we know that someone committed extra vicious crimes, and i'd make the argument that dispatching that person might be justifiable under certain conditions, which brings me to consider certain hypocrisies/ethical-compromises/paradox.
There is this other thing, this moral paradox where people that abhor violence, and the act of killing another human might consider if there were any circumstances where they wouldn't preach peace and forgiveness at all cost... similar to the folks that champion or defend abortion, 'but what if thiiis happened, isn’t it OK then?' sorts of apologetics/defenses... i got to tell you, when you start tearing into the folks that have no problem fvcking people over because they think the debt of their victimization and exploitation of others is cancelled-out if it's to accomplish a goal that they think is morally superior (ends justify means), you might begin considering all of the 'red lines', or 'lines that you drew in the sand', and absolute ethical boundaries which you've set, maybe to see how you might approach certain matters if you were placed in some pretty strange circumstances to make sure you really know what you believe about certain things, why you believe what you believe, is it true for every circumstance, have you ever factored/considered ANYTHING else, other data/variables/operators and the like?
I don't really know what underlying psychological problems that i may or may not have, but i offer 'too much information' on my blog for many reasons... and the reason that i just wrote that is to offer the reader one question, if you were in a position where you could dispatch a 'coyote' that's in the act of smuggling woman/childen or other slaves across the border because they are a part of a human-smuggling cartel would you intervene, and if so, how would you intervene? What if i pull a trigger, and execute a perfect shot to remove the life of a person that is involved with the regular practice of victimizing and exploiting the most vulnerable people in the world, what does that make me, maybe i'm a poster-child for some DSM category of human-malfunction... i don't think anyone really wants to kill someone else... i have zero desire to take a human's life, but i would take the shot to dispatch a human-trafficker any day, in fact--i would take the shot multiple times per day if necessary, and--furthermore--i'd take those shots day after day after day if i was in the position to take them... what does that make me? I’ll give you a hint, i’m not a psycho OR sociopath… There’s another thing that i'd offer to those who abhor violence of any kind under any circumstance, i'd say that you're free to call me anything that you want to, but i'd call you a pvssy with no back-bone if you wouldn't take the shot to rid the world of a deviant that routinely uses violence to exploit people as a life-style choice, free-will offers endless choices--the complete Pacifist can go find their sippy-cup, and grab their security-blanket while Realists handle the issue... call me what you want, find me in your DSM-5... maybe i'm some perfect clinical example of personality or functioning flaw, but i categorize myself as sort of a sheep-dog, i don't like violence at all, but i'll dispatch a deviant predator or slave-trader with little consideration about whether a complete pacifist is going to be outraged by use of deadly force... Oh, sorry, i'm sort of talking about the subject of human trafficking, child exploitation, sexual slavery and organ-harvesting... here, just watch this, OK.
A couple more quick points... folks that criticize the new film called 'The Sound of Freedom' are--without question--working on behalf of evil, and they are flaunting their predatory-deviancy for the world to see... and last, brandon administration's open border policies fuel human trafficking and exploitation, and organized crime... only ignorant or networked perverts will claim otherwise.
Well, go on and judge me, tell me what’s wrong with my logic, tell me what’s wrong with me, or ‘my spirit’, kindly explain some paradox that i live by, please. Cheers. -- ct