07-30-21: so I woke up well before the early birds today, but not without five decent hours of sleep, even sleeping Rx seems to be only as effective as necessary to sustain a weary human, but nonetheless, sleep is required and sleep was accomplished… so… hello Friday, top o the marning to ya, I hope that we will mutually respect one another so today will be fruitful for us both… and then how much more than that do people hope and expect from one another, for a simple guy that requires simple answers I have difficulty expecting any more or any less than the above statement… how and why people become obstacles to one another or victimize one another or try to control and prevent one another from living lives worthy of our existence are hurdles for many, and they are also evident in the technical surveillance and technical obstacles experienced by some of us, and such is life… we all have some hurdles to overcome I suppose… But humans require more from one another than intelligent or self-sufficient or overly independent folks want to imagine… humans require feedback and training and education for self-regulation and self-control and maybe even survival at our core… parents do as much or as little as possible to instruct our offspring in the basics for human survival and repopulation, and then other people help the offspring to discover and understand that which parents have not gotten to, or are incapable of teaching or enforcing… so reliance on other humans is expected and required, and how much and of what type of dependencies… well in some instances it’s the story of our lives, it’s the conscious effort of seeking and applying freedom and independence for many, going with the flow and normalcy of life for some, and an ever increasing challenge for others, and just a fact of life for folks with physical and cognitive ‘handicaps’… humans require nutrition and hydration and sleep to sustain life, and others seem to require much more, and how much more of what we require is always a healthy tops for self-reflection… I find myself living in a conflicted lifestyle between over-complicated and hard to comprehend comfort, but mixed in with understanding of essential requirements… and so inner-conflict and an urge for more change is a struggle that I appreciate and a challenge that I have accepted and might someday be fully realized… an inner struggle between simple and complicated, between essential requirements and commercialized comforts, between per-conceived normal and a challenge to change anything and everything that is void of truth and reality is the struggle of today, and most days really… but really, other people are more important than many of my inner conflict… you and the folks around you are more important that my own quest of inner-peace and comprehension… inner peace is realized when I afford myself any time, but allowing myself too much time can be folly and unhealthy and a fool’s mission… inner peace and balance are realized when I simply offer the god of my religious preference time as well, when I offer this ‘god thing’ to help re calibrate my understanding and change me from the inside out… but when I rely on other people alone to help re-calibrate my understanding I am left void from the inside out, but when I rely on god alone to help recalibrate my understanding and needs I am turned back to mere people to comprehend the calibration that god had required of me… and so for me the inner struggle and inner conflict between independence and dependency on both god and fellow man is real and unavoidable… I’m sure you are far smarter than I, and you probably have this sort of stuff figured out much better than I do, I am just a simple man that’s always just been trying to find my place in this confusing yet simple world, but it seems that I require both man and god to live in this complicated place that is ‘home’. -- ct
07-30-21 later: there is this nursery rhyme, or maybe it's just a kid's story... well maybe i forget exactly what is is, but did you ever hear the one about the 'boy who cried wolf'... well like i said, i don't remember a ton about that particular one... but what happens when 'politicians' become so 'mission focused' and go partly insane by spreading false information to unseat a president that they hate... well what can happen is that now you have a divided country... when the DNC leadership and their socialist and communist associates fvcking hate the former USA president so much and go to any extreme that they can conceive to replace the former president with a fvcking puppet mockingbird which will happily follow the lead of his marx educated socialist and communist associates, our current president in the USA is all about business and not so much citizens, the DNC business machine has sold out long ago to marxist embracers... and then the boy who cried wolf is scratching his head and pondering such thoughts as 'why don't people want to get vaccines and wear masks'... when compromised egos in public office use a 'scatter-gun' approach to removing a sitting president by attacking any and every facet of the president's character and actions and the people who vote for such a political opponent and then wonders why people don't fvcking trust 'mandates' in a free society... keep pondering such difficult and heavy thoughts president biden and the folks that own him... you have to remember that you attacked everything that you could and you happily did so, and that less than have of america actually believed you because we saw what you were doing a mile away, so keep trying with pathetic attempts to destabilize, divide, and instill fear... for they are the preferred tools of marxism... maybe marxism is essential in a small group of insane people that can't control themselves and are too stupid to know what's best for them, but the USA is a bit different, it's a bit bigger, and we the people of the united states of america do not require a dictatorship government, plain and simple... in efforts to weaponize a germ and to demand that fear is the best response marxists are smack-dab in the middle of 're-imagining a new america' with tools of germs, fear, demands for government dependancy, and anyone that they can incite and will act out in anger and hatred... i hope you love the big fvcking hot stinking mess that you have defecated upon these united states of america and my fellow citizens... eat your own crap and own your shameful methods of 'politicking'... we the people of the united states of america are worth more than that, we are worth the truth that you are sort of trying to hide... i hope that the boy who cried wolf doesn't get eaten by the very marxists that put him in office, but in some respects he already has... i hope that the reader recognizes right from wrong, some people never do. -- ct
07-29-21 laterish: so if i try to pick back up on a couple of langan's topics which might be a couple of things that i'm just going to call science/technology and religion, if i try to stay on those simple themes and how there might be examples of an inner struggle in my life i might say that i have every intention of studying medical science when i began my huge college educational career... when i began college i knew that i knew that i knew that i was going to be a medical doctor, ultimately i just wanted to be a primary care physician, i hated science and math but whatever... i won't go much more into my secondary education career but i'll just say that when i withdrew from college shortly following the official withdrawal date i had achieved a huge zero-point-zero GPA, that's what happens when you quite college in your first semester, and when you quite right after the official withdrawal date... so it should be known to the reader that you are not reading the words of a smart guy, i dropped out of college man... and so this sort of first part of my story collides with the second part which is what some folks might call a religious conversion of sorts, well i was introduced to the bulk of my religious preference as a child through a certain type of denomination of the same religious philosophy, but several years later i sort of heard it all over but for the first time type of thing, and whatever it was that i actually experienced was the beginning of a slow but steady sort of religious thing or understanding or evolution or whatevs... and then this sort of immediate inner conflict began when the science majors had to attend the annual Darwin Convention, and then i didn't even give the brilliant darwin guys a chance, there was this immediate preconceived perception that Darwin's theory of evolution was just plain old wrong, and then second of all i hate conventions, so that didn't help either, and third of all dyslexia types of things were kicking my ass, and sixth of all i just simply wasn't the type of person that could work a full time job to pay bills while i also tried to go to school full time to utilize GI Bill and Army College Funds, and then second of all i knew damm well that i wasn't quite ready or prepared to begin college at that point, i felt a bit overly encouraged to do so, and then third of all... well look, i don't need to try to cover every aspect of why i did, fifth of all i should have recognized and dealt with certain types of traumas or ‘unfinished business’ as i like to say... but again, whatevs for now... so if i'm really just trying to draw some type of personal example from i'm ascertaining so far from langan's publications i would say that the religious faith beat that of the science replacement, for me at the time it was one or the other and i just had a crazy religious sort of thing and that was about as much as me simple brain could handle if it were the choice between the two... life did not really seem to get easier for me in many respects immediately following my conscious effort to embrace a type of Christianity, as far as a new perception of life was concerned, well maybe life got a bunch easier, but i still had no clue where my place was in this world, i didn't know how i was supposed to fit in, i guess i never really did at all unless there was a reward system or instant gratification or a learned give-and-take sort of thing... but i'll say that after many challenges to the core foundations of my religious preference that i haven't been persuaded away or against or for further review, it's been a bunch of rocky years between the mid 90's and now but i'm still open to other ideas, and even if we agree to disagree i will still love like your a real person no matter, because we are really just equals of different understandings as far as i'm concerned, but my religious philosophy isn’t really all that complicated, it’s just that Jeshua HaMashiach and he lived a life example of his message and... well that’s about it really... and then so if I want to take another aspect of my life and dump it with the two themes above, and how they might to relate to langan’s publications I would say that I ended up in some sorts of technology jobs eventually too, it didn’t feel a whole lot like a conscious decision though, it was just through slow exposure to various types of technology as employment opportunities opened, and then learning more about the aspects that challenged my job requirements, and then chasing after other learning opportunities as I could handle... technology sucks because it forces one to learn new languages and if you are the type similar to me learning new languages doesn’t come easy... language seems secondary in many respects, new vocabulary isn’t always easy and langan is showing me that again, but I won’t try to retain much of his vocabulary, it make my head squirm a bit... one particular challenge and example of such was just taking a silly Microsoft certification course, the technical material contained within the actual exam wasn’t challenging but what was difficult about the exam itself was that it was mostly or entirely written by folks that English was their second language, and so the challenge to me was reading within their vague and different vocabulary structure to figure out what they were really asking... I didn’t have to try to learn a whole programming language to pass a simple exam but I had to read within their language to understand what they really needed as an answer... I really hated that, but just passing the silly thing the first time was a bit of validation and confidence, and all I really did was end up providing technical assistance to folks that required it, that was about all, and it was enough... I will say that the inviting pull of technology and it’s own language within could not supersede religion, in my case technology offered a gratification when you understand the language and how to utilize it as a tool, but a combination of science and technology would not suffice as an adequate replacement for religion, science relates to religion and religion to science, and science relates to technology and it’s language structure, but technology does not directly relate to religion except through the language of science... and so maybe if I could try to tie in science and religion and technology I would say that I am mostly clueless about all of them but they are all intriguing and validating, so far religion feels as if it supersedes the others, yet science as it relates to natural reality can’t be denied, but using science to supersede religion is futile at it’s core, the language of science is only limited to human comprehension and the preconceived theories that we utilize it for... well look, I’m just reading a bit of langan’s works and can only comprehend what I’m capable of comprehending but so far I just enjoy reading him make his case, that guy is pretty frickin smaht and he makes my noggin rattle a bit, so far I think that I understand his plea but time will tell... have you been challenged by religion and the sciences including technology? Don’t be afraid of a good challenge, embrace it and then come out of the other side knowing why it was worth the challenge... understanding the values in successful challenges will yield unending surprises and a lifetime of education... so how about getting off your fvcking arse and allow yourself to be challenged again, or for the first time... sitting on your ass helps no one ever, well technically speaking I am sitting on my old ars right now and I know that it is helping someone somewhere, so forget that other last part... but it appears that I’m slouching so I need to get up about now, that’s a scientific fact you know, maybe... get off your lazy ass and search for a way to challenge your mind and body, they both require challenges more than we may like or think, and that’s officially scientifical... please accept my challenge to you, you are far too important to stagnate and waste. -- ct
In mainstream social and economic theory, a human being is understood as a mechanistic automaton driven by individual self-interest and governed by impersonal laws of nature and rules of behaviorism. Human automata are subject to conditioning on the basis of individual self-interest, which is a function of the individual’s pleasure and happiness, freedom from want, pain, and sadness, and standards of biological fitness including survival and reproduction, all of which inhabit a standardized economy with a monetary metric. Man is thus simplistically viewed as an economic agent subject to monetary control, through centralization of which the entire future of mankind can in principle be mechanistically determined by the calculated pushing of buttons. Obviously, this dualistic view of man represents a complete negation of human dignity and sovereignty, reducing the human race to cattle. It is also incompatible with any kind of religion other than that referred to by Marx as an “opiate of the masses”.
""You look nice by the way," a man tells Hamblin in the video, prompting her to politely say "thank you" before looking at her cell phone ahead of her TV broadcast.
Another man then tells her, "You're beautiful as hell, goddamn."The second man continues with his comments, however, and asks why she is on television.
"Go find a TV and watch Spectrum News," she tells him, directing him to channels that air the station.
"See that's why I can't be left alone with a Black woman," he says, adding he can't be controlled around "Mulatto" women, referring to people of mixed African and European descent.
"Because I can't stand these f-----g white girls," he says.
"All right, we are done here," Hamblin says. "Have a great rest of your day.""You are sexy as f---," one man says as the audio becomes more distorted.
"Oh my god," Hamblin says as the video ends."
... so i finally clicked and actually watched the video this time and i wish the camera was pointed at the knuckleheads that were speaking at her, maybe their mother's could see how they behave and then remind them of lessons that they tried to teach to them, maybe, possibly... anyway, please accept my apology for the way a couple of human males spoke with you young lady... i dunno, maybe some people just have no filter... but i think it's a bit more than just that really. -- ct
07-24-21 way later than before: holy frickin crap... that might sound light a terrible statement to some folks but to me it's my honest to god initial thoughts, in most respects... so we are a family that appreciates entertainment from mostly song and television or recorded audio/visual marvels... and so tonight we got started on a topic of conversation that spoke to the words of a male human that participated in heinous acts against other humans during the nazi communism dictatorship that had become of germany for so many years... it seems that this fella that was tried at nuremberg and found guilty, and that was by an international gathering of more stable and reasonable sorts of country's, you see this german nazi type of guy that was convicted of war crimes against humanity was asked how nazis were able to gain control of a bulk of their nation and this male human stated that 'it was easy, all we had to do was exploit fear', well i don't remember exactly what his quote but my life-long partner/spouse/wife, whatever you choose to call her, she said that the quote is more like " it was easy and has nothing to do with nazism. The only thing a government needs to turn people into slaves is fear. If you can find something to scare them you can make them do anything you want" ... look, i don't know how to fully process that logical and honest answer from someone that had previously exploited fear and inhumane treatment to the point of death against other real humans, i'm too simple of a man to fully unpack that brutal honest answer to a legitimate question, but somewhere buried beneath his answer is a simple exploitation of the human nature, the human frailty, the human psyche, the human... well look, i'm not a professional smart person so you would have to look up things like the ways that marxism and lennon and mao and castro and other communist socialist dictators utilized or still utilize fear and subjugation to gain control of entire nations full of people that ought to know better... it seems that semi-smart people know how to utilize and exploit the human mind to achieve ultimate power and control of the people that it considers less than equal... if i think you are too dumb to know what you really need and my ego requires the utilization of any means possible to make my own sort of utopean dreams come true i can really fvck over a shit-ton of people, i can really fvck over a cubic or metric shit-ton of people do what i want them to do by telling them what i demand of them, what i want everyone to do and believe and how to behave and how not to talk back to me because you are frickin nuts if you talk back to me and question my thoughts and motivations and behaviors and actions... oh yeah, i can fvck over a nation of all shapes and sizes if my compromised deviant ego required that sort of thing... oh my god you have no idea how fragile the human condition can be when subjected to natural disasters and traumas and foreign stimuli, it doesn't take a ton to rattle the nerves and incite and instill fear in pawns and sub-servants (less than equal)... folks that really and actually believe that they are the smartest people in the room (greater than equal) and their ideas and thoughts are superior and that since their ideas and thoughts are superior they are allowed to do anything that's required to make their fvcking moronic utopean society come to fruition, well that's just wrong and creepy and fvcked up in so many levels... but anyways... my point of writing this weird sort of blog post is that the quote and brutal honesty of that nazi male human inspired us to watch the movie titled 'the sound of music' and it's about this musical sort of family that eascaped/fled/go the fvck out of nazi communist stolen and occupied austria when the fvcked-up guy named adloph hitler just had his own fvcking field-day, he just had a glorious old time exterminating people that didn't quite fit in his idea of utopea... it seems that the hitler guy was bad news, really really bad news and so he required a wake-up call from an international coalition of more reasonable and stable world nations to smack him and his nation around a bit, they sort of had to kick the sh1t out of him to make him quit spreading his sort of blissfull utopean fanatasy about what he thought was a perfect little world... that guy was fvcked-up... and so anyway i'm no historian but you can use your free-thinking skills to utilize the internet to read more about nazism and marxism and socialism and communism and dictatorships and the types of methods that they utilized to gain control of entire nations, and how they got so fvcking out of control that they began to expand beyond their own borders to make more and more people subserviant and less than equal to the greater than equal dictators and the folks that they use to control their subservants... well look, i'm not a professional historian or professional smart person of any sorts but good fvcking luck to you if you require strong fearful and controlling leaders and folks that follow their hatred... that sort of thing bugs me to my core but i am a survivalist at heart, i can entertain the most compromised ego even if only for a little bit, i am a non-mission essential ignorant and simple type of guy and it doesn't take more that food water and shelter to sustain my simple requirements, and when controlling deviants control food water and shelter to subservients than maybe i'm screwed, and so are the average or less than average folks... but those who are labeled as the 'greater than average' do well in those types of nations... maybe i'm just a fearful sort of guy that never gave socialism and communism the benefit of the doubt but i doubt that because history and time tell a different story... history and time tell stories of how and why fvcked up people exploited human nature and fear to bring anyone that's prone to fear to a level of control and abuse that usually requires an international coalition of more reasonable and more stable countries to set their people free... america is a two hundred year old nation based on freedoms for the citizens and doesn't allow for it's government to rule as a dictatorship like successful socialist and communist nations require, so maybe i just don't get those socialist and communist sorts of folks well enough to understand their motivations and philosophies all that much, for i am just a simple american person that was born into freedom and i just don't understand government examples that require strong leaders, i'm too simple to comprehend that type of situation, it's a bit foreign to me and my simple little mind, it seems that controlling and compromised egos will do whatever the fvck they want when given the opportunity to do so... and so goes human nature and inadequate deficiencies, no one is perfect and so we require equal and opposite branches of government and neither of those equal and opposite branches deserve a greater than or less than equal status because socialism and communism and inevitable dictatorship control require subservant 'citizens', and subservient citizens are triggered by angry people that require fear to be successful in their mission, and america wasn't founded on elitist controling smart people, it was founded by subservient people that were fed up with royal dictatorship types of folks that had their won perfect little religion and perfect, well that's a topic for prince harry's future publications i suppose, that guy seems like he has a lot to say... but compromised slave owners and others found ways to exploit people that they actually believed were less than their equal, they spoke about them and treated them and acted like they were more animals than humans, and now socialist communists are exploiting a period of nasty history in our country to cause division and divide and frankly just to scare the crap out of people that aren't quite sure what the strategists and pawns are doing... if that idea wasn't so fvcking ludicrous it might be brilliant, but stupid is what stupid does and so some semi-smart people exploit the sh1t out of the rest of society when it fits their needs and egotistical requirements... well look what i just did, i wasn't planning on writing this much about certain passions, but the point of this post is the holy-crap sort of feeling that i just had when i sort of self-identified with julie andrews character in the sound of music... i'm an old hetero white american male that is self-identifying with maria... i think the scene early in the movie that takes place in her monastery is what did it for me... it's the not quite fitting in but overall good hearted sort of feeling that speaks to me through her character, just call me a simple nun if you will, but really it's the history and convictions of the von trapp family and why they did what they did that speaks to my inner soul, and then the character as represented by julie andrews speaks to the person in my inner most being, but i was trained to put a knife in someone's throat and how to cave in a knee and break ribs and smash a persons face with various body parts and weaponry, and then that maria von trapp lady was good at different things... music and other types of things that are different than me, but i can relate to her character and her motivating factors and rawness in her appreciation for simple things, maybe, possibly, really... call me a misfit nun maybe if that's what you require but holy crap did her character speak to me and i can relate... well the movie has an intermission and i require bladder relief... good talk then. -- ct