05-08-21: good day to you too mate, but i suppose it's night time there and fall is beginning to settle in, do you all get foliage like we do in the cool northeast of usa? anyhow, i appreciate feedback of all sorts, realistically there are just under a thousand folks that have seen any of these pages so far over the past few months, and realistically i don't offer much to anyone that stops to read other than my opinionated biased perspectives on a few things, really... so solicited feedback is appreciated, sometimes it changes my perspective to a degree, some times it's about what i expect, and other times it's just polite nicety, and once or twice it was a kick to my man regions, but even hate is appreciated... a balance of varying perspectives is what i aim for, and so it seems that i am on target... so anyhow, i am glad that you noticed that i seem to be trying to change the problems that i see with my country by dedicating this website to my children and their generation... good on you mate, brother, whatever else we are, amen and thank you too.
i have some ex-bosses that hale from australia, but they weren't of the outback type, they were of the fancy city trying to get rich to spoil younger family member's fantasies type, intellectuals with warped perspectives type, that's a bit how i remembered it, and they don't take too kindly to criticism... it seems that maybe we all must have met during differing periods of our lives, they wanted to be rich and silly and i just wanted to learn how to get a good night's sleep and get my head back on a bit more straight... one ongoing project that i have is a new resume, its actually a decent writing exercise to put a hind-sightedness, less ego/biased look at my real employment history, but how to do it tactfully and less harsh than i like to be, that's the trick, that would be the true art of it... it's a good exercise, but time will tell if i complete it successfully or not... writing can be hard when you are still pre-editor, feedback is appreciated by readers if not to blast my biased opinion on something but to let me know how well my writing style speaks to you, and how i can improve, i know about dyslexia sorts of issues that i exhibit, i am trying to learn how to write less fancy and more straight-forward, that's a bit of a challenge because of the great shake-up that 2020 was to my life, 2020 helped get my ego a bit more balanced and so this is pretty much the way that i like to write, it's about how i think as i'm writing so i think it's what you would call my language, and to a degree it's 'my voice', it's a very freeing way to express myself is really what it is, too... it's simple and imperfect and i have the pleasure of describing myself as such, so i think it works... time will tell... but frankly it's also incredibly freeing to be held accountable to no one other than the god of my religious preference, my immediate family, and the members of society that like to play well with others, they seem to be the best way of keeping my ego and sanity in check, it's incredibly freeing to live my life that way, it's incredibly freeing to not have to be everything to everyone and just be myself and not have to be intimidated by noisy intimidating distractions to life and reality, it's incredibly freeing to not feel that i have to please everyone in society even their hate-fueled illogical nonsense... and to the small percentage of the population that refuses to change their own dysfunction to the point of militarizing and trying to intimidate more normal people i could kick your frickin ass because i'm not a simple push-over, i will make you work for it... but i am letting my three kids know about the types of tactics that you and the far left like to use and abuse, my kids need to know about those sorts of things because they are important things to know... but i'm not satisfied with that as an end to any problem, so i am learning more about you and the types of people that are inciting you and what motivates you and why your theories aren't solid, so eventually i can learn how to teach you like i know how to teach my own three kids, i know how to communicate to my three kids, and i'm also learning how to communicate to other types of folks too, someday i hope to be able to do that too, because being smart enough to notice that something appears to wrong somehow is a good first step, but knowing when to let your ego die to actually try to be a part of an effective solution is the point where i find myself these days... i'm not a politician or have i studied public policy of constitutional law or the sorts of things that those smart people are supposed to know so no much help from me there, nor am i one of those news media folks that studied communication and whatever those smart people are supposed to study, and there are endless things that i am not, however i found myself fully immersed into the title of being a father, the wife and i had three kids and so i had to learn how to communicate to them, i had to learn how to communicate all over again from scratch, i had to learn how to communicate with three little bitty things while i was also learning to communicate to people that were much smarter than i was... it ends up that i prefer to communicate with my three kids than the smart people that were paying me to communicate with other smart people... it seems that communicating to folks that are a generation behind me might be the thing that i have learned how to do adequately, sometimes, maybe... so in order to try to make the world a better place i am focusing my efforts on myself and my three children who are my only legacy in life, i have no ambitions to be what most of my peers would consider to be successful, i tried that and i suck at it, it turns out that i'm far too simple for that... so back to my kids, their character and the way that i teach them and how i try to prepare them for and about the world that they are easing their way into, well that is really the only logical thing where i can make any contribution to society, it seems that being a dad/parent is a pretty important job... and, good on you mate for pointing that out, and i appreciate you snapping me back to that simple reality this fine new england morning. -- ct
... this is sort part of my message to my kids and the their generation, do you like it:
People are never
black or white, We
are all just a shade of
something different…
…Different but Equal,
Equal but Imperfect,
Imperfect &
Unashamed
Unashamed = Freedom
Freedom = Respect
i'm gong to throw it on some tee shirts and try to sell some and hopefully give them away too if i can, feel free to use it if you want, i don't need to copy-write it or anything, but i think it's a message worth spreading, it's sort of a 'front' and 'back' sort of thing in my mind, and i was thinking of getting it screened onto skin-tone tie-dyed shirts, but feel free to use it if you want too, i sort of like the message. -- ct
05-08-21 later: i suppose that if there is anything that i do that is useful then maybe it's wise to share the usefulness with others, like my kids, but if i worked in the publishing industry for awhile and i picked up a couple of things along the way, and then someday i begin to self-publish so to speak then maybe it's worth understanding the bigger picture, maybe with a goal to be able to articulate that big picture to others, and show others how to do it in some respect... if that were the goal then maybe i would say to others to take the simple message that i wrote above and re-work it, massage it like a lump of clay and then how would you rework it, what are impactful words that that speak a message that you think is worth communicating... what's your message to your family, your neighborhood, your corporation, your church, your political action committee, whats your own message to the world, slow down a bit, and take the time to articulate your passions to the world... what's your message to society today, what's your impact statement, if you aren't living a busy lifestyle you might be able to crank it out in 2 minutes, if you don't think much about the world that's going on around you maybe it's hard to get going in the first place, but just try, it's worth it... it's worth it more if you can go back and look it over a few times, maybe let it set in a bit to the point where your own words can speak back to you and reveal your heart, but try it anyway... now do more quick thing too, you've taken the time to get it out and you are comfortable with your message so it's only logical to next ask how you are conveying that statement to society, how does your lifestyle convey that message to society, how does your behavior convey that message to society... and if you have children then how are you teaching your children these sorts of things that are important to you? someone is teaching your children things that are important to them, and whether you realize it or not you are teaching your children plenty of things whether you are trying to teach them these other things or not... for example if i drink alcohol to the degree where it becomes a medical necessity but you tell yourself and others that you are fine you must be teaching observant young children something through those actions, whether you want to teach them something through that or not you must understand that you are teaching them something through this sort of dysfunction, perhaps some jerk like me calling it dysfunction is a bit unpleasant, maybe even like a poke in your eye, but this is my platform so i get to not be so nice sometimes don't i. 2020 has taught me a lot about myself and the sorts of dysfunctions that i carried into my fifties, and i'm a better man for it... i'm still far from perfect but trying to do something now about the message that i would convey to the world, but/and if i'm really making the effort to live it myself and finally be able to teach it to the next generation... i understand a bunch more about the sorts of things that kept me from reaching any sort of potential and i'm trying to make efforts to change my life right now, and my life for the future but it seems that revisiting the past is a huge step toward that direction, so 2020 is a year that i will ever be grateful for... whats your story, whats your voice sound like, whats your impact statement, how are you living your impact statement... or are you, i hope you are living your message to the world, for me it's awfully hard some days i tell ya. -- ct
05-08-21 a bit more later: there was this guy that i met a handful of times prior to my marriage and a handful of other times shortly afterward, he was of english descent but resided in canada. i remember he and his wife coming down to northshore mass and visiting his daughter and their family, and i was and still remain friends with his daughter and her husband and their family... but more about her dad, this small framed old-timer from the north that spoke with the eloquence of an english gentlemen, i actually don't remember much actually other than it was mostly religious sorts of stuff that i remember him from because he spoke in front of the folks at the local church that we went to, he had done that once or twice or a handful of times, and then he had also done that at another church that i had visited once or twice or something like that, but really there was once thing that he spoke about one time that's been bouncing around in my simple noggin a bunch lately, it was a sermon or something like that that i don't remember a ton about but something 'everything is permissible in grace but not everything is smart to do, somethings are frickin just plain stupid to do mate' ... please don't think that i'm really quoting him above, he was mush smarter, and wise, and patient and could communicate far better than i can, but he preached a sermon, or actually just politely spoke for a bit regarding this sort of misquote which i horrendously misquoted above. he seemed to be quite smart when it cam to nutrition and lot's of other sorts of things too so i will simply call him brilliant but i believe that when he simply told his short story to us at this church, or really i think it was a bunch of folks sitting in fold-up chairs that i probably helped to setup an hour prior, but when he told his story to the fol;ks at our church i think i remember him speaking about nutrition when he spoke to us, and i'm apparently incapable of remembering what nutritious sorts of things that he tied to his theory of the freedom of grace and although grace allows for dysfunction it's just plain moronic to eat a pond of bacon everyday and expect to live to see one hundred, it's just wrong man... so please assume that i misquoted the words that he used to explain his theory and how that theory also pertains to everyday common sense, but i might even be missing more to the picture other than the simple thoughts that remain in my simple mind but maybe today the same example might be something 'if you live in the united states of america you have this constitution that states that you and everyone that lives within our borders legally you are given a huge amount of what is known as freedom, and that most of the imperfect people that helped to write this constitution believed that the same freedom that is given to every person by the same god of their religious preference should be extended to everyone that declares themselves to be, or were born as it's citizens, so they assume that everyone would probably want to enjoy that same sort of gracious freedom that their god offered to the folks that call him their god, so there is this aspect to freedom which some people call sin nature or other people call it human nature or other smart people call it lots of other things but really i just want to call it dysfunction, and in my ignorant and arrogant perspective i
want to explain to my three kids
that everyone is born with dysfunction and hurdles and challenges to overcome, and some folks have more challenges or greater obstacles, but really we are all sinners or imperfect humans and need the help of other smarter or more experienced people to help work out the dysfunctions that we persist to harbor, some folks need the criminal justice and corrections systems to help with getting the dysfunction out of us, others get stoned to death, some are ostracized, some are spanked, some are beaten, some are never shown grace through these sorts of behavioral manipulations, others are not, some people are treated like they deserve this treatment and will always deserve this treatment, some people are manipulated to feel trapped in those sorts of situations and experiences and some people are just plain ol' treated like they are inferior, plain and simple... i'm one of the simple people that had to learn that sort of thing through religious means, through the teachings of someone that told his followers that people are created imperfect but equal, he told them that sort of thing, but he also taught them that now that they have decided to follow him and his teachings that they need to get rid of all of the filthy dysfunction and behavior that they are used to doing and are supposed to follow this new sort of perspective about grace through faith but then shedding off the old former crappy stinky behavior and actions and begin treating everyone as your equal, as equally needing the same grace that you require to get your act together, he taught that there is some sort of thing that you need to do for everyone and its called something like forgiveness, and there is this thing that if you keep rolling around in your dysfunction like a dog does in a stinky pile of dog crap that you will require correction in some form or another, some people learn what is acceptable to most normal people from their parents, others learn it from people who are not their parents, some people learn those things from the words of a religion, some people will refuse religion and the weak people that choose it, some people will learn through the hands of a gun, some will learn as they die isolated, some will learn because a mentor helped them, some will learn from someone somewhere who cared about them, some people learn from the songs of a musician or a poet or movies or entertainment but learning the penalties of remaining in dysfunction can be downright brutal for some folks, it can be a punch in the mouth or a kick in the crotch or a loving reminder from someone that cares but man do i wish i could remember how that smart old-timer from the north explained his theory about everything is permissible but not acceptable, that guy is still touching the lives of others today, he had a nice way of saying things that i find difficult, that guy could really speak to my soul once or twice... in my simple mind i want to say enjoy your frickin freedom people, it's a god given right, but when you forget that everyone is imperfect and equally worth not victimizing you will forfeit your freedom in some capacity or another... and by the way would you please pray for me because i want to slap some sense into someone right about now but i'm writing instead... cool, cool... good talk then. -- ct
05-08-21 even more bit later: watching some tv with the two youngest family members, chic-fil-a and the mandalorian on disney plus is the order of the evening, my boy could have his birthday wishes granted because his birthday fell upon a sunday this year, just ask bobby bones if you don't understand this dilemma, but he got his birthday wish tonight and so chicken sandiwhes and waffles fries are making my belly smile... he got it too, he had his first bite experience of a chic fila sandwich and he smiiiiiiiled, and when he did i said 'there it is', it's what i had hoped and expected to see, his smile when he tried his first bite ever, and now our bellies are smiling and it was a belated birthday wish come true, way to bring it chic fil a, you made my boy smile. -- ct